It's overwhelming talking to you.

You act like I'm freaking out, when you raise you voice first?
I just need to make it through this next month.

Seeing two of my best friends in one week has really been helping me stay up and positive, though.
I really appreciate them.
I just hope I can keep things this way and not let everything get to my head.

I'm tired of feeling this way because of you.

Maybe I'm just like everyone else, sick and tired of being sick and tired.

I don't want to be on a hook.

Even with everything that had happened, I'm grateful for the life I have.
And I'm certainly grateful for the things my family has done for me.

I really need someone to talk to me about tonight. Talking about it usually makes me feel better.
I still am feeling sick to my stomach, and I know it's not the food.
But, I think I'm going to have to leave this as it is, for now.

The worst part is; This is probably the last Christmas we'll have as the four of us, and that doesn't bother me.